Showing posts from April, 2019


So to continue what I was saying before, things have greatly improved and are looking up but now then problem is me.
I feel like the colour has gone out of me . Like I am this muted version of who I was. I am going through all the motions of all the things I like to do and see and in my head I just want to curl up on the couch and sleep. I could sleep for weeks.

So I has started to write this because I am going to be 40 this year and I want it back

I get a windows where I feel good, mostly if I am with the kid or D and I are talking about moving into the van but it’s fleeting. I want the colour back. People around me all seem to be moving forward and I feel stuck . I am not going to dwell. I want to feel again and I think a lot of it is a healing thing. I need to observe my life . So good or bad I am going to take you with me

It's been awhile

Good morning all,

My god it has been a while since I posted anything here . So much has changed in my life. Like so much. I feel like over the last 2 years i have grown up, maybe in ways not for the best. Cone out of it a little jaded, a little scared and a little less trusting. That said I have come out if it with ultimate faith in the things i know and the people that love me .Let me start from the beginning.

I was in finance for years, I had a plan. Work until the kid was graduated, try to save as much money as possible and then move into something mobile like a van with Chef D where we would happily travel , eat and blog with our very established by then Vagrant foodies blog.

Well, then life got in the way and i found myself no longer working at the bank. Jobless with 10k to my name to live on i ended up running a fast food restaurant for a year while at 38 i tried to figure out what i wanted to be when i grew up. Again i had a bit of a plan, Chef D, always my champion was there …