Dear 40 Entry #3
Well I could call the curse broken this year. I had a wonderful Birthday.
I am thinking that somehow I had myself a 30's mental headlock.. that I was possibly keeping myself chained up? Food for thought anyway.
My mom made me dinner, my girls made me cards and gave me Ginger candy. My sister and her brood of 5 ( -1 who was studying) came over to have Black Forest Cake and coffee.
It was a good visit. We dressed up the dog and we laughed.
Time now for moving forward.
Every day I am going to do something that makes me uncomforatable. I got the idea from my Life Mate who had done a year of this the year before we met.
I am an introvert, very happy to stay quiet and to watch, but as I had noted before I wasnt always that way,
I used to sing, I used to laugh and never ever felt invisible. How can you be invisible when your hair is as flaming as the sun. Yet, somehow over the last couple decades I have become quiet, scared an invisible.
Have you ever felt that, that when you open your mouth to speak no one listens? They talk over you until finally you just stop talking? So you over compensate, pretend its your choice and you really didnt have anything to say anyway.
So a couple things I am embarking on.
For health I am going to be fasting for 2 days a week. I have been reading a ton by Dr Jason Fung out of Toronto Canada. I have a passion for health and nutrition and I have often thought I would like to reach out to people and help in that vein. It is part of my entire wellness practice that I see in my head.
Working for myself, natural mental and financial healing, The wallet the waist and the Soul. They are the three pillars of life.
So today I am practicing. I am fasting until 8 pm or so. I wish I had more to say today. Possibly I will later but for now I am going to keep in the Yes mindset, try for today to speak when I have something to say and be grateful that TONIGHT is Christmas Tree and Die Hard night for my love and I.
I am thinking that somehow I had myself a 30's mental headlock.. that I was possibly keeping myself chained up? Food for thought anyway.
My mom made me dinner, my girls made me cards and gave me Ginger candy. My sister and her brood of 5 ( -1 who was studying) came over to have Black Forest Cake and coffee.
It was a good visit. We dressed up the dog and we laughed.
Time now for moving forward.
Every day I am going to do something that makes me uncomforatable. I got the idea from my Life Mate who had done a year of this the year before we met.
I am an introvert, very happy to stay quiet and to watch, but as I had noted before I wasnt always that way,
I used to sing, I used to laugh and never ever felt invisible. How can you be invisible when your hair is as flaming as the sun. Yet, somehow over the last couple decades I have become quiet, scared an invisible.
Have you ever felt that, that when you open your mouth to speak no one listens? They talk over you until finally you just stop talking? So you over compensate, pretend its your choice and you really didnt have anything to say anyway.
So a couple things I am embarking on.
For health I am going to be fasting for 2 days a week. I have been reading a ton by Dr Jason Fung out of Toronto Canada. I have a passion for health and nutrition and I have often thought I would like to reach out to people and help in that vein. It is part of my entire wellness practice that I see in my head.
Working for myself, natural mental and financial healing, The wallet the waist and the Soul. They are the three pillars of life.
So today I am practicing. I am fasting until 8 pm or so. I wish I had more to say today. Possibly I will later but for now I am going to keep in the Yes mindset, try for today to speak when I have something to say and be grateful that TONIGHT is Christmas Tree and Die Hard night for my love and I.
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